The end is near...

I am quickly noticing that things are unraveling all around me. I am splitting myself into two people: the one who strives to have that elusive "career," and the other being a child who is desperately clinging to the child and young adulthood in which I currently live. I don't know into which of these people I will morph, but I know that they are the only two options. Do I stay in the Status Quo, return home, settle into my house, my family, my old life? Or do I run forward into uncharted territories of my own life, to become something I am unsure of, to live somewhere which is yet to be determined?
I am watching my friends break-down before my eyes. We are all trying to make serious life decisions and non of us have the faculties to sort out the many faceted gem that is the decision of the rest of our lives. (I call it a gem because it can be either beautiful and mysterious or just a rock.)
The idea that we are going to lose the friends to whom we have devoted the last few years. Those upon whom we have depended for fun, for guidance, for love, no longer will they be a few feet away across campus. Now we will find ourselves across town, across the state, the country, and even across the world!
These are great times of anticipation, but they are also times of strife and silent suffering. We put so much pressure upon ourselves and have so much pressure put upon us by others, that it is unbelievable that we have even come this far.
All that is left to do now if cry about everything, laugh about everything, and decide everything. I know that we will hide within the nest of the secure present until the last possible moment when we are thrown over the cliff and expected to fly. We will fly, it may not happen the right away, we may have to come close to the ground, or even strike it, before we fly, but I have no doubt that we will be no flightless birds...the future will happen and we will happen within it.